I wasn’t buying the magazine anymore or even picking them in the store and rarely messed up on the computer. And yet it was not enough, I still lusted in stores, on the street and in the gym. I tried a new technique, “bouncing my eyes” but its effect was pretty limited, at least for me.
Then it dawned on me. I did not need more knowledge, I needed more of God. I needed to experience him! I knew a lot about God, but did I really know Him? My deepest desire became to experience eternal life, to know the only true God and Jesus Christ whom He sent (John 17:3).
Real victory came when I learned how to pray through the times of struggle. My greatest temptation, at this point was at the gym. I began to pray when I arrived in the parking lot. I asked to experience him through the temptation to lust, to know him here. Soon, I found praying about God’s holiness and His strength was far more effective than praying about my weakness. Then, the song “The Name Of The Lord Is A Strong Tower” came to mind, from Proverbs 18:10. When lust reared, I visualized running to the strong tower of His name.
Associations began coming throughout the workout. Drinking water reminded me of the living water that wells up inside of me. My joints ached, “Oh, balm of Gilead, lubricate my joints”. Every few days, the Lord impressed me with another connection to Him in what I was doing. How exciting this was! I was learning to pray continually in the Spirit (Eph. 6:18). The Spirit was leading me, telling me what to pray.
Now it is time to get to work on your relationship with God. Begin praying through your times of struggle. Maybe you haven’t completed the recommendations I gave at the end of part 1. Ask God what you need to accomplish them. Have focus on him, not just your problem. He will guide what you need.